Enchanted

I'm watching, "Enchanted." I love that movie. <3 Disney forever.

I posted another song on my Myspace music page that no-one will listen to or care about. lol I really like this one and think it's my best one, yet. It makes me feel kind of sad when I listen to it. I prolly like it more than anyone would because it says a lot about how I feel. Ha, how emo does that sound? Oh, I don't care. It's about time I be myself. Writing a blog nobody reads and posting songs I love that nobody will listen to, talking to my cats in high-pitched voices, and thinking about romance. That's me. Take it or leave it.

This will be round two with paying all the bills on my own. So far, so good. I worked a butt-load of overtime last week. 3 days at 12 hours a day. It was ridiculous. I felt like a bowl of soggy Cheerios all week. I backed my car into my garage and scratched it up on the side. I also bent the sensor on the garage to where it wouldn't go down. I spent about twenty minutes bending it back and was late to work. That is the second time I have been late to work because my garage wouldn't close. Two times. Two different reasons. This one, I caused. But still, yeah they totally believe you if something like that happens twice. haha yeah right

I took an Excedrin migraine about ten minutes ago and I feel like I just got off of a roller coaster. T-Mobile decided it would be a great idea to roll out some huge changes this week and train absolutely no-one on them. It was an awesome day. I am not excited about day two. Thank God I have Saturday off and the last half of Friday, too. I have no idea what I'll do with my days but I know it will be better than the alternative.

I am so excited for November. I should be able to get a day schedule. I have to at least work past 7:30, though, to get my extra dollar an hour. Every extra dollar counts. Still, anything is better than stupid midnight. Blar.

I finally carved a pumpkin. Evan and I carved them the other night. It was fun. I'm happy with my pumpkin. He, yes he, makes me laugh. I wish I would have carved it sooner but I'm sure it'll still meet its untimely demise on my porch, freeze, and grow a plant like the one from last year did. I got so pissed about a month ago that I went outside in sock feet and chopped it up. I was going to see if it grew a pumpkin but I decided it needed to die. My yard still looks ridiculous. I think it's just not in the cards for me to get my lawn mowed. lol I have a lawnmower but I spent about three hours trying to figure out why the wheels wouldn't screw on. I watched, "Kate and Leopold," while I attempted to put it together. It was all in vain, though. I don't know what I planned to do once I got it together. I've never mowed a lawn with a push mower before and it's cold outside. It's tough owning a house by yourself but by God; I'll get it done. lol

I should go to bed soon. It's prolly a good idea to start going to bed before the sun comes up, yes?

Where the Wild Things Are

I finally saw the movie. I really liked it. It was kind of sad and happy at the same time. It could have been a little better, though.

I want to see Zombieland really, really bad. I might go see it tomorrow. I shouldn't be spending money on movies but I'm working 12 hour days so I should be fine. It's going to be a tough week. I really despise working night-shift. When I get off work there is literally nothing to do but go home. I should be able to get a day-shift by November. I absolutely cannot wait. I will so much happier.

I am really excited that it is October and that Halloween is just around the corner. I have Halloween off and I still have no idea what I plan to do. I really want to go to the corn maze and a haunted house this year but I doubt I'll make it to both...maybe not either one. I'm crossing my fingers. Andy and I are going to carve pumpkins tomorrow night. I'm excited. I love carving pumpkins.

I have a new found obsession with cooking. I've been saving money by cooking food I like and eating the leftovers throughout the week. I'm very proud of myself. I finally got part of my game plan squared away but I'm still working on a lot of it. Right now I'm just trying to figure out who I really am and what I want out of life. The hardest part is figuring out how to get what I want. I'm hoping to find my path quickly but I need to be patient or I'll drive myself crazy.

I'm currently watching 300. I had planned on watching my favorite horror movies and having a marathon of them but I ended up watching 300, instead. I should probably go to bed but I don't want to. I'll probably put another movie in when this one finishes. I might not wait for it to end. My attention span left the movie about 15 minutes ago.

I guess I'll let the dogs inside. They're acting like it's freezing outside. It's not nearly as cold as it was a couple nights ago.

Drunk and Turnovers and

I cooked steak and mashed potatoes and gravy. The steak was like shoe leather. That's what happens when you get meat from Wal-Mart. I need to get more steaks from my dad.

I love wine. I'm not a wino. But I do really love the feeling. I feel all tingly and happy. I'm going to be signing up for some major overtime at work this upcoming week. I need money and I want something to keep my mind busy. It's nearly winter and coming home single at a time when a person would normally have someone to curl up with really fucking blows. I'm glad the turd is gone but I miss being a part of a couple. I feel kind of old. I know I'm just 25, but still. Life is like short and stuff and it blows I wasted all that time. And, to top that off, I thought some really cool stuff was starting to happen but the realization that I'm probably half crazy came fast and hard today. I think I need a game-plan or something because I feel kind of like I'm in some sort of dream that I can't get out of. Sometimes I really can't believe where my life is right now. It's like the whole last year never happened.

In better news, I am cooking cherry turnovers. Thank God for cherry turnovers.

Sore Throat

My throat is sore. I've drank nothing but water and milk for a few days, now. I want a soda so bad.

My dogs are outside staring at me. They're soaking wet but I really don't want to deal with them tonight. They're disgusting and I just know that the minute I open the door I am going to be covered in muddy streaks. Ew. I think they get to stay outside and deal.

I would really like it to be the weekend. Work has been tough with this sore throat. Seeing as how I literally just talk all day long...

My fingers are super sore because I've been playing my guitar non-stop. I want to get better at it. What better time to practice than when it's raining, 4 in the morning, and I can't talk.

I don't have a whole lot going on. I'm excited because I might get to see Jessi on Sunday. I literally haven't seen her since she got married.

I watched a couple of movies. I rented "Sunshine Cleaning" and "He's Just Not That Into You" from the Redbox. I really liked the second one. The first one was just "okay." The second one really reminded me of myself and it made me laugh.

Okay so that's all I've got. It's kind of fun to write blogs that nobody reads, again. ha, I feel like I'm 18.

Kansas

This weekend I drove to Kansas City to go to the Nextel race with my dad. I took off work early so I could drive down and get there by 11 or so. I didn't get to leave when I had originally planned which set the night off to a late start. I called my dad and got the directions over the phone. In my flustered state, I thought he said to turn right on highway 7. What he had actually said was to turn left. So, as you can imagine, I went way out of my way. Long story short, I got super lost in Missouri/Kansas hillbilly towns and even the GPS on my phone had no idea where I was. I literally turned a 3 hour drive into a 6 hour drive. It was something else, I tell you what. But you know, I wouldn't trade that for anything. Looking back on it, I got a lot of thinking done. And God and I had a little discussion, truth be told. That conversation, as all of them with God are, is between us. But what I will say is that I might have been driving my car but he pointed which way I went. I think that when I was ready to head the right way, he pointed out the road.

Anyhoo. The season is changing outside but I can also feel myself changing. I took out my nose ring. I changed things around. My house doesn't look at all like it did a month ago. I've met new people. I've done things I've never done before. But really, the biggest thing is that my outlook is different. It's really strange but I don't miss how things were. I like how things are, now. And yes, yes I know. Just about anybody says that because they don't want other people to know they're hurting. What I feel is bittersweet. I think good things are coming my way and I'm super pumped. But I'm also patient. There's not a reason in this world why I need to rush along. God is bringing things to me as they should come. I want to be myself for the first time in a long time. It's hard because I, too, have spent a lot of my life being what others wanted me to be. I'm not doing that anymore and that's the battle I'm fighting.

Okay, enough of the deep stuff. My neck hurts. I never remember to put sunscreen on, even though I always burn. This sunburn is so a-symmetrical. It's all down only the right side of my neck and it covers my chest. My nose is red, too. Haha, I'm a "redneck." ...thanks, Nascar

I'm sitting here listening to "Hello Seattle" by Owl City and Yoshi and Kara (my cats) are chasing the moth that got in the house. They are currently sitting in the living room looking straight up at the ceiling. I love my cats. :) You know what's cool and sorta weird about my life now? I think I'm able to love clearer and stronger. I don't think that could be possible if I wasn't on the right path.

Alright, where's the aloe vera?